Sunday, September 22, 2013

The Night Sky

It's where it all happens
Where the secrets are spread
When the lies are told
And the crimes are committed

Hidden under a heavy blanket
Littered with millions of stars
All dying
All dimming
All darkening the sky

It's scary and large
Frightening to the unknown
Terrifying to those who are safe

But him and I, we're friends
We talk
We concentrate, contemplate, and consider
The possibilities that he can bring
That he can deliver
That he can hide.

Monday, September 16, 2013

It's Normal

I can feel it,
I can feel the burning betrayal
Coursing through my veins.

Slowly making its way into my heart.
A little bit each day crumbles,
A little bit each day falls away.

Its worse you know,
How close you really are.

It would be okay if you were miles away
I could blind myself with hope.
Chalk it up to the distance.

But you’re right there
So close I can reach out
And just miss the wisps of air
you stir up behind you.

I’m not obsessed
I tell myself that everyday.
I tell it to myself
to make me feel normal.
That this hurt, is normal.

I try to let you go
and in the process I reminisce.

About all the times we spent together
About all the things I told you.

And it takes time to realize.
Even if I let you go,
I won’t have to let go of the memories.
I can keep those
Even if you choose not to.
They can be mine and mine only.
A secret that can spurt
The tiniest shreds of joy.

You changed
And I will accept that one day
But for today
I want to remember yesterday.

Monday, October 22, 2012

Can't be

I'm just not good enough.
I'm just not perfect enough.
I'm just not who you want me to be.

I can't be good enough.
I can't be that girl.
I can't be perfect.

I know you say you don't want me to be perfect.
But listen to yourself.

You do.

You can't help it. 

Sunday, October 7, 2012

It's Over

She looked up at the night sky
Wishing she could be free
Someday, she'll learn how to fly

She was too tired to cry
And inside she was empty
She looked up at the night sky

She was too drained to cry
Her tears had already shed plenty
Someday, she'll learn how to fly

The wind whistled in reply
To the tears she dare not cry
She looked up at the night sky

The stars shone in the sky
Showing her the way out
Someday she'll learn how to fly

She waited for a reason why
To take the final step forward
She looked up at the night sky
Soon, she'll fly

Saturday, September 29, 2012

The Tears Fall

The tears fall
With a cause 

It rips me from the inside out
How can I still be upset?
How can I care after all this time?
It's just so numbing

It's like a faint buzzing in the background
Almost inaudible

But still there. 
Always still there

Half of Me

When I left
I left half behind
I turned and never looked back
My other half alone and deserted.
It never asked why
And I never gave a reason
Now I know what I missed

Accept Me

I strive for success
crave satisfaction
beg for acceptance