The Night Sky

It's where it all happens

Where the secrets are spread

When the lies are told

And the crimes are committed

Hidden under a heavy blanket

Littered with millions of stars

All dying

All dimming

All darkening the sky

It's scary and large

Frightening to the unknown

Terrifying to those who are safe

But him and I, we're friends

We talk

We concentrate, contemplate, and consider

The possibilities that he can bring

That he can deliver

That he can hide.

It's Normal

I can feel it,

I can feel the burning betrayal

Coursing through my veins.

Slowly making its way into my heart.

A little bit each day crumbles,

A little bit each day falls away.

Its worse you know,

How close you really are.

It would be okay if you were miles away

I could blind myself with hope.

Chalk it up to the distance.

But you’re right there

So close I can reach out

And just miss the wisps of air

you stir up behind you.

I’m not obsessed

I tell myself that everyday.

I tell it to myself

to make me feel normal.

That this hurt, is normal.

I try to let you go

and in the process I reminisce.

About all the times we spent together

About all the things I told you.

And it takes time to realize.

Even if I let you go,

I won’t have to let go of the memories.

I can keep those

Even if you choose not to.

They can be mine and mine only.

A secret that can spurt

The tiniest shreds of joy.

You changed

And I will accept that one day

But for today

I want to remember yesterday.

Can't be

I'm just not good enough.

I'm just not perfect enough.

I'm just not who you want me to be.

I can't be good enough.

I can't be that girl.

I can't be perfect.

I know you say you don't want me to be perfect.

But listen to yourself.

You do.

You can't help it. 

It's Over

She looked up at the night sky

Wishing she could be free

Someday, she'll learn how to fly

She was too tired to cry

And inside she was empty

She looked up at the night sky

She was too drained to cry

Her tears had already shed plenty

Someday, she'll learn how to fly

The wind whistled in reply

To the tears she dare not cry

She looked up at the night sky

The stars shone in the sky

Showing her the way out

Someday she'll learn how to fly

She waited for a reason why

To take the final step forward

She looked up at the night sky

Soon, she'll fly

The Tears Fall

The tears fall

With a cause 

It rips me from the inside out

How can I still be upset?

How can I care after all this time?

It's just so numbing

It's like a faint buzzing in the background

Almost inaudible

Almost

But still there. 

Always still there

Half of Me

When I left

I left half behind

 

I turned and never looked back

My other half alone and deserted.

 

It never asked why

And I never gave a reason

 

Now I know what I missed

Accept Me

I strive for success

 

crave satisfaction

 

and

 

beg for acceptance